There was a girl in it, cris as I know her in real life.  I asked her how she saw me and she told me
That i'd forsaken everything and everyone chasing love and that I didn't even know that some people loved me because it wasn't the way I wanted and that i'd totally blown off my family my friends etc in the persuit of love and that kind of happiness and with the way the women around me had been screwed over it didn't matter that i was completely pure intentioned and wanted love because that was exactly what they were afraid of, love itself after they'd been hurt. It'd be like 40 years before it was popular among them again.
And I Said "I Think people think it's because I'm ignorant to the pain of losing someone. I have dove head first though and lost... twice. It's just...
"like a drug to you? yeah"
and I responded "I feel like i'm a run towards in a world full of run awas. I don't know how to deal with that."