The beginging of this dream I'm with Jim at this big reunion party. His family is there are I notice some of my family here too. Everyone is dressed upscale casual, there is plenty to drink and eat. The general atmosphere is happy and good, people are smiling and conversations are in plenty. Not for me though, I'm being talked about behind my back. I overhear Jim's cousin Sherry, she's underminding me and I feel threatened and alone; so I quickly run up to her and polightly confront her about what I hear her say about me. Sherry treats me like I am below her feet, not worth the time of day and snubbs me infront of these people. I turn away from her feeling hurt and ready to cry. She walks further into the many halls. I find Jim flurting with his male friends. I feel hurt again, yet still follow.

Jim and I are now at some banquet, there are many halls and the main color is a dark brown wood of the walls and furnature. I see the help in this banquet halls are almost nude accept for an apron. The young men are all models or looked like models you might see in sexy megazines. I was trying to get Jim's attention but all he was interested in was the attention of the younger mostly nude helpers. I ask around if there is any possible work here for me. I walk away down another dark brown hall with yellow/gold lighting. Finding myself at the dinning area where a man in his thirties is placing a steel tray inside a buffet banquet, he asks me are you going to be working here. I reply that I'm unsure. So he suggest I ask the boss inside the kitchen. I walk over to the double swinging kitchen doors and can see through the small upper door windows that the boss has all the young naked twinks lined up to hug them before they enter the dinning room to serve the food. These twinks are all in aprons and you can see ther naked asses and upper body. Its rather shocking for me at first. I swallow back my insecurities and enter the kitchen while the boss is huging and feeling there asses before they go inside the dinning area. I hear the boss say he loves this one man in the apron.

But, when I do enter the kitchen The Boss is naked and is all pepped up as is high on all these young naked men. I ask him for a job very reluctantly, and he tells me no, but I'm welcome to come back to visit and enjoy this atmosphere. I feel almost dirty for asking for a job where its obviously not for me.  I look around and notice none of these young men are over 25 and many of them do not seem to understand english, they were just eye candy for the older boss man in his fifties.

I walked out of the kitchen feeling like I was used up and old, and wondered why I'd even consider such a job.

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