I'm really taking a reaction to this dream. Recall dreaming of this basement years ago when I was together with Jim. Ever since breaking up with him the dreams of this basement stopped.

Last night before going to sleep, standing outside the condo in the Florida room having a smoke; wonderful insight moved through my mind like water in a river.

As reflections of my past flowed and my now understandings of those parts of my life concluded themselves; my heart opened and my energy shifted and more love in thinking, words and actions filled me.

I thought of Jim and how after two years, he just may like to hear from me.

I even spoke to Richard about these feelings.

Before going to bed, telephone call comes in from old friends that I used to love so dearly. I had to stop visiting them a few months ago, they were not very healthy for me, doing coke and lies and always trying to get something out of you. Dave call's saying that Deb is in the Hospital. It breaks my heart knowing I want to call and go see her. It also already broke my heart with her and dave that they kept using me, and then it spread like a bad dream and they used Richard and my Mom.

Hard getting sleep ... .  when sleep came it was after3a.m. and kept waking up every couple hours.

This is what I can remember from my dream:

The Basement

I'm inside a big house, down in the basement. The basement is huge and is badly lit, shadows in the corners.

With two other people that I do not remember who they are right now. They feel friendly, and I feel secure with them. I tell them that this basement has two other levels going down, its been refinished and this floor is not the original flooring.

I tell those two people that I can remember dreams where I have been here before; been down to the other two floors and I describe them very well. There is something and someone down in those other floors, figure that he is dead now and it must be his spirit.

I desperately want to leave this house, this basement has a haunting vibe... just have to leave.

(I recall in the other dreams that Jim and his neighbor down the street Shane(which they had a strange relationship) where always present in the basement dream).

****The dream changes... Now I'm seeing my own face in a golden oval mirror. Something is bothering my nose, I pick at it and it begins to bleed. Holding my head above the white sink, I turn the faucet sink tap on and the water runs. Watch the blood drop in the running sink water from my nose. It feels refreshing to let the blood out of me. My nose stops bleeding and I turn the water tape off.

EOD.